Thursday, February 5, 2015


Three years ago today I tried to kill myself.
I have suicide attempt dates in March and August but for some reason it's this date that haunts me.
My mental stability is nonexistent.
I've officially relapsed in every way.
I have eleven burns on my wrist.
I'm restricting and purging again.
Getting more oxy this weekend.
Been thinking about overdosing.
I had an accidental overdose three weeks ago.
I don't remember anything.
All I remember was waking up out of it after being fed suboxone.
Apparently I was turning blue.
I had stopped breathing.
I shouldn't want to be dead.
I shouldn't want heroin after almost dying because of it.
But here I am.

1 comment:

  1. Please please try your hardest to hang on to your life. I am so sorry you have relapsed, but someday you'll look back and be glad that you're still alive. I know that sounds like such a cliche, and I'm sorry I don't have anything better to say, but please please stay alive. I am here if you ever want to chat.
    <3 Lee