I try

Really hard not to kill myself.
Everyday.
It's a struggle to wake up in the morning.
To force myself out of bed.
I purged fourteen times yesterday.
It was just a normal day for me.
Get up.
Eat.
Purge.
Cut.
Eat more.
Purge more.
Cut more.
Repeat.
Over and over and over again. It just never ends. I do this constantly.
My throat is so swollen right now it's so hard to breathe.
I wish I would stop.
My lungs should stop working.
Just shut down.
I'm so tired,
So so tired.