I know she won't read it but

I just wanted to congratulate Julia on graduating.
I wish I could say it to her but I just can't.
I'm supposed to be the bad guy.
I'm supposed to be the one she blames for everything and hates.
So I'll keep quiet.
But I miss her.
I miss my friends.
I miss them all.
Most of them graduated today and I won't see them again.
Maybe it's better this way.
If this year goes the way I planned hopefully none of them will ever know what happened to me.
Hopefully none of them will have to care too much if they find out.